I change every time I write one of these entries. I don't write often... but still. I come back as an even different person than I was this time, last year.


After many, many years I can now stand in front of the mirror and see beauty, often. I can stand compliments without cringes. I'm slowly learning not to compare myself and my body to other women. That what I have is enough, and is meant to be this way for a reason.

I've learned that there ARE people in this world who will see beauty IN me as well as out (I had nearly given up hope). I'm still not certain everyone will be able to love me through my rough spots, but... such is life and loss. It's better than I felt 6 months ago.


My confidence, my capabilities, my achievements in the past month have risen dramatically. I don't want to say I'm dependent on other people for my self esteem, but having friends behind you who truly believe in you, make a world of difference.
All it takes for me is an "I trust you."


~Ishirini